I just finished A Call to Power: the Grandmothers Speak. I am amazed that I had not seen this before. All my life I have been trying to seek God. (LINK) I was born into a Christian home and took all ceremony to be a Christian but it was just words and pressure to be what my parents wanted me to be. However it did not explain how I had visions and could see things others could not or how I could heal. When I told my mother about these things she would say it's evil and tell me to pray for my soul. When I told my father he would tell me that he had them too but he kept it quiet. Yet he tested me to make sure I was not just crazy and low and behold I was not crazy.
Why do I tell you these things? Because I left the church upset with feeling I am going to hell but I must be authentic to myself even if the church would excommunicate me. I sought a comforting God, not a fire and brimstone God. I fell into one bad relationship after another until I finally became authentic. I started reading on other religions and got annoyed by the similarities and differences until I started reading things like this book, like Michael Ruiz and about Buddha. Though I still could not grasp my feelings, I started feeling a little more secure in my thoughts.
I believe in the Self and I know that my ego has gotten in the way of me being fulfilled. I believe we are one with God and are God and I feel I am ready even if I am just the messenger to give the work of God and the Grandmothers, of the Great Spirit and the Old Ones. I have friends that I wish to share this message with. It is my sincere hope that you will help me with my empowerment.